What is your way? #29on29

We normally remember or if not at least mark the decades of our lives in some memorable way. Later as we aged, we’ll remember how our twenties went, our thirties happened, and the milestones on our forties. I don’t normally do birthday write ups but since I am on the last year of my twenties, this deserves a spot on my blog site. 🙂 🙂 🙂 Cheers! Twenty nine is twenty nine. This includes giving some thoughts on how to make my twenties memorable in some positive and life-affirming way.

Just like how it has always been I THANK Papa God for giving me another year to live, learn and enjoy life. I thank Him for the gift of life, opportunities and chances. The best gift I have been receiving for the past 29 years of my life. My best years are not yet over. My best years have happened, are happening now and are in the future.

At twenty nine, everyone I know has lost someone they loved. I AM NO EXCEPTION TO THIS. I, however, have come to realize that death is inevitable. What’s meant to be is meant to be. I have lost dear friends in the past years. This year, I had to let go of the one that matters to me most, my mother. Losing my Mama has made me realized a lot of things. It made me see how great life is even after a fall – not that I am never grateful of the things I’ve had. It just made me see life in a whole new perspective.

I spent a lot of money traveling and have no regrets about it. This year, I gave up traveling on my birthday to realize something that I have always wanted to do. Something worth-while and worth it to conclude my twenties. Indeed something that will be remembered for the rest of my life.

I have always volunteered for outreach programs and activities. Traveling for hours or so and going off remote areas to reach out to the kids and spend time with them were priceless to me. Since this is what I have always wanted, I pre-celebrated my birthday with the kids of Baslay, Dauin Negros Oriental. A meaningful Thanksgiving for all the blessings received even after a storm. What better way to give thanks than by giving back?

I have always been thankful for my family as well. I never had a perfect one but at least I have supportive people behind me who helped out to make my birthday bucket list possible. Also, at twenty nine I realized that the friends I have for more than 15 years are the people who are likely to stay in my life forever. The bond we have means more to me year after year. They’ve became my family. I can’t thank them enough for making this outreach activity possible for me as well. They’ve definitely played a good role and a good part on my birthday this year.

I also thank God for giving me an amazing work colleagues and friends who have been a part of my journey and joy. Who didn’t think twice to spend time with me and pre-celebrate it with the kids. This year is indeed special in so many ways.

This is my final year in the decade of my 20s. There is no blueprint to life. As I continue on my life’s journey, I will try to be more forgiving this time. Forgiveness makes us stronger. I will also try to treat people a little more gently since we really don’t ever know what someone is going through.

Love lots,

Maja

I Love You, Goodbye Mama…Till we meet again.

“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.”2 Timothy 4:7

I have always wondered how those people who have lost a parent or their parents felt? I’ve gone to some obsequies before and I have seen how people grieve for their loved ones. My family is no exception to this. At the age of 10 my mother lost both her parents and I have experienced and felt how she and her siblings grieved for their loss. I was too young back then that it feels like the sadness has never reached the deepest part of my heart and soul until recently when I finally have to face the same fear seeing my mother battling for the last days of her life.

Growing up without a father makes me think if somehow it feels that way. However, I never held grudges towards my father and I never felt like I needed one before so I don’t think the feeling will be at par. After going through a dreadful experience of losing my mother, I would say the feeling IS NEVER AT PAR.

My mother has suffered from Diabetes Type II for quite some time now. She’s been through near death experiences three times too with this illness. She’s battled against diabetes until her body could no longer stand the disease. A year ago, she suffered hypoglycemia. For the first time in my life reality hit hard on me that I may lose her anytime. That’s when I knew I was never ready to let go of her yet.

My heart was pounding hard I could almost hear my heartbeat like a drum inside my ears. When the doctor said it was normal for her blood sugar level to be erratic since her kidney has been affected, I didn’t know what to think. One thought just keeps looping in my head. SHE CAN’T DIE YET. SHE CAN’T DIE YET. SHE CAN’T DIE YET. I wasn’t ready for what may come. I guess no one is ever ready for death?

Since then, I always have one prayer every single time I get the chance. “Lord, please let my mother live a little bit longer. DON’T TAKE HER YET. If she’s every beyond healing, let her at least recover a bit from her illness because I still want to spend time with her.” This was like a song looped in replay since last year up until a few days ago.

After a year of that dreadful experience, I have faced another dilemma seeing how my mother’s health and body have deteriorated over the months. The number of medicines she’s taking remained the same. Every single month we visit the hospital, there’s no news of improvement. We only either end up having the same amount of medicines to take for the month or there are additional ones that she has to take.

She never complained about it but her body could only take so much especially that her kidneys were also affected. Until one day, her body could no longer take the medicines. Her food intake also became minimal. No amount of encouragements from me and her siblings were able to lift her up. She was bedridden. She knew her death was inevitable.

Seeing my mother struggled was painful. Painful because I can only do so much for her but I will never be able to ease her out of her miseries and pain. I knew it was only a matter of time but I didn’t want to entertain the thought that I should prepare myself for what was about to come. I was in denial that my mother could still make it out of her pains even if my aunts kept telling me that I should start processing to myself what’s impending.

In her last month, she refused to go the hospital. She said she got tired going back and forth the hospital monthly. Rather she asked us to help her pray. Pray that God will take her soonest because she’s burdened too much. I knew she was ready. This made me ask God if it’s too selfish of me to hold on to her still. I knew things will never be the same especially when she decided to accept the last sacrament.

On September 3, 2016 at 8:46 am, she’s finally bid farewell to this world. She died in the arms of her sister who was helping me feed her that time. She even nod to us when we greeted her good morning that day. My world has stopped revolving that day. My long lost question about how people really feel when they lost their parents has finally been answered – because that day, I lost my own.

Today, I will have to face my own fate with a strong heart and a determined mind. Life has to move forward. Until we meet again Mama.

Why We Shout in Anger

A Hindu saint who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled ‘n asked.

‘Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?’

Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout.”But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.’ asked the saint.

Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples. Finally the saint explained, ‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small…’

The saint continued, ‘When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper ‘n they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other ‘n that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’

He looked at his disciples and said. ‘So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.’

DISCLAIMER: Please note that I did not write this story. I do not know who wrote this. Someone sent it to me two years ago. I am only sharing this now on my blog. I have shared this previously in my personal Facebook account.

Dub it and Mash Up

DUBSMASH! Ever heard of this recently? Dubsmash is a mobile application for both apple and android users which allows you to create short videos dubbed with famous sounds and lines from known movies both locally and internationally. You can have a selfie video dubbing your favorite songs or movie lines or you can do a group video dancing to the latest tracks and trending dance moves.

The application is really easy to use and will allow you to save the finished video directly to your gallery so you can share it to various social media sites when you’re brave enough to share your creation. Video clips are really short lasting only to 15 seconds or less. You then have the option to compile your video clips into one video file to make a longer video mash up of all the dubs you’ve made.

One with the craze again, my cousins and I decided to make our own dubsmash entry to join the fun. Please see below for our dubsmash entry. Have fun! Click HD for a clearer video.

Fish Feeding at Dauin Marine Sanctuary

A Traveler's Corner

Dauin is known for its many popular beach resorts. The coast of Dauin offers scuba dive sites. The municipality has several established sanctuaries in which fishing and boating are absolutely prohibited. The marine sanctuaries offer huge variety and quantity of marine life forms.

So off we went fish feeding this morning in Dauin when the weather was so convenient! There are resorts along the sea coast that offer snorkeling gears for rent and life vest for those who are not good swimmers. The best thing about the sanctuaries is that you don’t have to go that far. Just bring with you a piece of bread and the fishes will surely come near you.

Below is one of the many videos we have captured this morning. We went snorkeling at District 1 site. Dauin has about four or five marine sanctuaries that are well preserved by the town’s local government.

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